FOR BRANDON from JULES

Brandon, I can guarantee that since God had called you and drawn you to Himself He will never cast you away or allow anyone else to do so. And having read your prayer requests I can assure you He HAS called you. Also no one can take your blessings and destiny.

Three verses come to mind immediately: (added emphasis)
John 10:27 -29 "My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and NO ONE is able to snatch them out of My Father's hand."
Hebrews 13:5, 6 . . . . For He Himself has said, "I will NEVER leave you nor forsake you." So we may boldly say: "The LORD is my helper; I will not fear. What can man do to me?"
Romans 11:29 For the gifts and the calling of God are IRREVOCABLE.
The fears you describe sound like torment. One source of torment is unforgiveness. I suggest you read Matthew 18 with emphasis on the last few verses and ask God to show you anyone you have bitterness, resentment or unforgiveness against and deal with them.
You might also read and meditate on the gospel of John.